addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
agedashi tofu!
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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Okay so maybe it's just the names of items on the menu...hurhurhur.
Been an eventful but fun week.. Need to start putting my head into the oven mugging more.
Spent the weekend (most of it at least) over at that little island called Sentosa with the family. Stayed over at Siloso Beach Resort. Really miss our family holidays.. Bangkok 06 was funnnn. PAM! I MISSES YOU. Haha anyways..for this particular mini "holiday", we spent the afternoon sitting in the luge, lazing around on a beach chair by the pool (never dreamt it could be so relaxing to be sitting BY the pool, instead of IN it), floating around inside the life-saving buoy and getting pulled around by Big M and Dadster (nobody told me it was that fun!), playing ROULETTE a family game in the hotel room and enjoying that SUPER HIGH PRESSURE SHOWER. I feel so zen now HAHAA. Was cool .. away from work, training, the world.. hahaha. Ignorance is bliss.
Training's been rockin' fun. Solitude is actually quite theraputic. But I'm still very bothered by thick clumps of phlegm that get stuck in my throat and practically choke me to death in the middle of training. Or the mucus running from my nose that suffocates me.. I really almost died today..there was this VERY THICK CLUMP of phelgm that refused to get outta my throat no matter how much i coughed/ tried to get it out... for a few brief seconds I was left with no airway (nose was clogged with mucus)... hahha. Ah the excitement and life-threatening element of training.. i like.
Haven't been able to sleep very well.. been getting nasty nightmares. Last night's nightmare was particularly disturbing.. Basically I was in some ship that was in very choppy waters. And in this ship, I was required to go for chinese lessons (?!). Unfortunately I was very sick, and I kept going to the toilet to throw up. Disgusting! What came out was peanuts.. no i don't mean "peanuts" in the figurative TTDurai-earns-peanuts sense, but as in..literally, chopped up peanuts. Thing is this- I LOVE PEANUTS!!!!!!!! Gah so yes I was throwing up a LOT of peanut vomit. When i woke up I could still feel the unpleasant vomit taste in my mouth.
Suddenly looking at food makes me want to throw up (this may be a good thing).. Strange how powerful these dreams can be. I was strolling through the supermarket trying to find something to eat because I felt rather icky (now you know what i do when i feel icky), but i really couldn't find anything that looked nice to eat! Amazing, I usually pick up my favourite oatmeal scones or wholegrain cereal or NUTS or whatever yummy things I love! GUHH. I think I won't be eating nuts for a long time...
Meanwhile.. WHY IS THE GRADIENT OF THE TENSION-EXTENSION GRAPH POSITIVE?! -bangs head on wall.